★ Sunday, September 16, 2007 ★

contradicting *

mummy!
you tell me what should i do?!

i'm unable not to do anything.
i'm unable not to think too much.

either way hurts.
either way i feel bad.

why do problems keep arising?
can i put an end to all these?

i'm already 19.
am i able to handle it well?

or i should ask, is he able to handle well?
so that i can just pretend i don't know anything.

sounds so irresposible.
what to do? do i have a choice?

6 months. after you left, i'm like living in a make-believe world.
unable to accept the fact that you chose to go to another world.

alot of things not done yet.
alot of words not said yet.

how i wish this is just a prank, or even a nightmare.
but sad to say, it's not.

escaping from reality.
and i still do not want to face it.

well, that's human.
human likes to deceive themselves.

i'm a coward.
i'm weak.

while looking through the contacts in my phone, i saw your number.
this line, will never ever get through again. but i'll still keep it.

all these bits and pieces has become memories.
and it will stay in my heart forever.

i own the memories.
no one is able to take them away.

i believe i can handle well.
that's the difference between the 18-years-old-yishi and the 19-years-old-yishi.

last emo entry for September.
birthday month, i should be happy.

i love you, mummy!
hope you're smiling up there.

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yours truly


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